Mainly at myself….
I went to my back specialist today and like every other visit, he weighed me. Now, I do not own a scale, nor do I want to buy one, so those monthly visits are the only time I know what number is associated with my weight.
Now, before you start nitpicking at me, yes, I am overweight… I realize that…I have been that way for over 30 years…But, let me tell you this, before I suffered a severe back injury (that wasn’t brought on by weight although that does not really help), I used to go to the gym three times a week and I loved it. I didn’t lose a significant amount of weight, but I toned the hell out of my body and, despite still being plump, I wasn’t overly flabby.
Last time I was weighed was in January, after the Holidays. I was afraid that the scale would show a number that would anger me…but it didn’t…It was the exact same number it had been before. Going into the visit this time, I was afraid that the number would be higher… With that apprehension in mind, I stepped on it and indeed, I gained 3 pounds. Now, three pounds isn’t the end of the world, but I am so used to weighing the same thing that when that number changes, I start to wonder what I did wrong.
I had tried a “low impact” cardio exercise routine the day before and my back hurt after that…So my doctor recommended that I take 2, brisk 30 min walks a day. It doesn’t sound too bad…And I have an hour for lunch anyway. Summer is coming up and I think it is the best time to start this routine. So, I decided to walk a 30 min at lunch and 30 min when I get home. I am just going to leave my stuff in the car and walk as soon as I get home. I live in front of a bike path (which pedestrians can also use) and that is the perfect place to take a walk.
Also, I am going to make small changes. Like lay off the coffee, try to reduce my portions, lay off the sugar (even I don’t eat a lot) and other things that are more or less good for you.
I dislike change, like most people…and I am not looking to diet. I tried Weight Watchers once, it did work, but I do not have the budget to dedicate to it right now. And like I said, I don’t want to diet, I’ll just be careful with the things I eat and try to eat less. I made my peace long ago that I will never be skinny… But, eating healthier and changing certain habits is always a positive thing.
But man, I never thought I would miss going to the gym soooo damn much…. It really does become a drug once you get used to it.